I need a song to fit how i feel right now....

He hasn't told his family.. at all. Infact denied it when he was asked or so says Gary. Scott and I were talking... then I asked him about it, "Question for ya, does nic still say we're not together???" And since then no response. Hes not one to ignore but hes also not one to lie. He'd rather avoid then lie. So I'm wondering wtfs going on.

I'm confused, scared and a bit lost. Is he dating me to pacify me?! Things have seemed so damn perfect! WTF

Help

I need music to listen to help work this out

advice, comments?

-.-

so shes got a boyfriend now too. XD LMAO

and i commented her facebook status change saying, "yous too?! nice! Grats!"

and she deleted it XD

of homework...0.0

So classes went well... and i've been doing homework all night, which I don't mind... its kinda fun. =)

But things with Nic haven't improved a whole lot. Hes pushing me away he said he has some problems going on but won't say what kinda problems.. and keeps telling me its none of my business so  butt out.

Dunno something isn't right. Hes hiding something.

help?

So, things with Nic are amazing. <3 Love him sooo much. He makes me so damn happy its like insane!

Um, health wise I've been cleared healthy but need to continue to phisical therapy for another 2 weeks before returning back to work. WOOT . XD BITCHES!


But I ish sleepy. Time to go dream of him and amazing things. lol

Spent the night at Nic's the other night. It was amazing. <3

1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
Stand up for what I want even at the risk of losing it all.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Er... kinda

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Not anyone close to me.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Nope.

5. What countries did you visit?
Uh.. USA?

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
My own place, my own car, my own family... outside of my parents. lol

7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
March 6th... the day Nic broke up with Maryah and promised me the world.... **and yet he continued to screw her!!!**

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Mmm... I dunno.

9. What was your biggest failure?
...

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
-.- Yes

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Hmm... hair dye?

14. Where did most of your money go?
Ema and Nic annnnnd mostly my MOM

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
When SLUTFACE left... or when Nic used to spend everyday telling me how important I was to him, how he couldn't live without me and how he loved me and didn't know how to say it.... Geez... where did those days go.

16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
"My Happy Ending" - Avril

Compared to this time last year, are you:

17. Thinner or fatter?
Fatter -.-

18. Richer or poorer?
Poorer

19. What do you wish you'd done more of?
... Excercizing! =) or being healthy... or spent more time with Ema when she was younger.

20. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Waste my time waiting on him for my happiness!

21. How will you be spending Christmas?
Dunno but I do know it'll be with Ema

22. Did you fall in love in 2008?
Nope

24. What was your favorite TV program?
House!

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Mmmm no

26. What was the best book you read?
I can't read. =p

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Mamma Mia the movie?!

28. What did you want and get?
Nic embracing me more as someone he really wants inhis life

29. What did you want and not get?
... for her to die? errr I mean Nic to actually DATE me.. but who knows that might happen soon

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Dark Knight and Mamma Mia ooohhhh ANNNND Flushed Away XD

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
21 and I spent it with a bunch of ppl who pretty much ignored me and blew me off... except Alex and Mel. Unfortunately.... I also spent most of it crying. Except for the evening part of it.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Nic being open about me.... dating me... FULLY embrasing me!

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
Me?

34. What kept you sane?
My friends!

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
House =)

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Presidency

37. Who did you miss?
Erm Alyssa.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Dunno

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008?
That you can't make anyone else happy unless you yourself are happy as well.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything."

or

"This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know"